I missed National Puppy Day due to travel, but I’m still going to share Elway’s adoption story!
It was April 25, 2015, Anthony and I had talked about wanting a pup together for about a year. I honestly don’t remember the catalyst that led us to the shelter that day, but I’m so dang glad it happened the way that it did.
We had just moved into our first apartment that was just ours, and we were so excited to make it our own and bring a new love in to join us.
It seems to me that one of the biggest goals for everyone surrounding a TPN dependent individual is to get them off of the therapy. I even had a doctor I had never met before come into an exam room and the first thing he said to me was, “Alright, we will be stopping your TPN.” Needless to say, I broke up with that doctor because he did not understand my reality (and turns out pretty much no doctor in NW Arkansas does, hence why I still travel to Dallas for my care!) Anyway, while this is an amazing goal for lots of people who experience the need for parenteral nutrition at some point in their life, this is not always the case. And I’m here to tell you that that’s okay (even though I still struggle with accepting this myself every single day.)
I began my venture with IV nutrition support at 13 years old; not long after receiving my diagnosis of Chronic Intestinal Pseudo-Obstruction. At that point, my biggest goal with every doctor’s visit was to cut out one more day per week. At this time, this made total sense for my situation. I was still able to consume foods and maintain my weight and the days slowly dwindled down to 3 days per week.
For years I was able to maintain a somewhat healthy body on this regimen. But when my doctor asked if I’d like to see how I would do without it, things went downhill quickly. (The aftermath of that below.)
If you had asked me then, I would have said I was doing amazing! I was off TPN! It’s all I’d ever wanted and it was my goal all along, right? I was doing great!
I wasn’t minding what the scale said. I wasn’t minding how my body felt. I wasn’t minding that there were days I could barely sit myself up out of bed. None of that mattered.
I made it about nine months without TPN before I found myself in the midst of the longest hospital stay of my entire life while on vacation in California. I was stuck inside of a La Jolla hospital for two full months. I had really gotten myself into rough shape. All because I was priding myself of being free from what I’d felt I needed to get away from for so many years. There, I was told I needed to get back on it. And this time, I was unable to consume food by mouth. My condition had worsened and I was unable to tolerate even the simplest of foods.
So I started all over; seven days of week of TPN. And you know what? That was five years ago, and I haven’t dwindled one single day off of my regimen.
And you know what else? It’s gonna be okay! Because I am the healthiest and happiest I have been since I was a child. TPN gives me the energy I need to thrive, and that’s exactly what I feel like I’m doing!
I have a wonderful team who makes my TPN to where it’s perfect for me and keeping me as healthy as possible. I am not surrounded by clinicians who try to pressure me to do things that could hinder my quality of life. They understand my disease state and can see that my body is doing exactly what it needs to do.
Of course there are severe risks with a therapy as invasive as IV nutrition, but this cannot discount the full life it has given me and many of my friends. It is possible to live a healthy and fulfilling life on TPN, and I am so thankful for that every single day.
Another of course, if you are able and working to get off of TPN therapy, that is AMAZING news. This post is for those of us struggling with the reality that the day we are off TPN may never come, and coming to terms with the life it does allow us to have ❤
Hi! I wanted to take a quick break from Tubie Pad Features this week to share about a really cool thing my body helped me do a couple weekends ago! I got to photograph a wedding!
My friend Paul, who was my teammate in capturing this wedding, was really kind and took some shots of me (or shots I was accidentally in, ha!) so I thought I’d share those throughout this post, along with some of the photos I captured from the wedding day at the end!
If you know much about weddings, you know they’re pretty stressful. Add in being the photographer of a wedding, I’ll just be honest and say the stress is very high. Being all places at once, making sure to get all of the very important moments (which is honestly all of them, ha!) and just the general stress on your body to run around for an entire day, it’s a lot! Continue reading “Photographing a Wedding & A Thank You to My Body”→
Hey you guys! Anthony and I were invited to go out to Sacramento to attend a focus group and a half day seminar, we had such a fabulous time! I’m so excited to share our experience here with you today!
The time we spent getting there and getting home held some of the most intense action (not in a great way, ha!) so I’ll start with a (now) funny tale from our journey out there!
So on our way out on Thursday, we were going to be on a small plane on the first leg of our flight. You know how that goes, right? They always call out that they’ll, “check your bag at no charge to get to your final destination.” I always jump at this opportunity, because I HATE having to tote my bag around. So we went ahead and took them up to the desk. The gal asked quickly, ‘any blah, blah, lithium batteries, blah, blahs in either of these?’ My blah’s are not used in a mocking notion, just to emphasize the size of the list!
I ran through my bag in my brain, and didn’t believe I had any guns or any of the other items, so off they went!
Well surprise, this was the first time I’d traveled with my camera. On the plane while we were in the air, I leaned over to Anthony and asked, “Um babe, are camera batteries lithium batteries?” Continue reading “Good ol’ Sacramento”→